Dear God:

It's morning again. I'm frustrated and somewhat down today. Had hoped You would rapture us Home last night. But morning came, as usual, and the challenges of the day are yet to be revealed. Days are difficult, Lord. Every morning I think about him. My heart aches because of our loss, but the greatest pain is for his wife and little girl. They are so great, and I hurt so much when I see them suffer. I know!! You never promised us an easy life, and You did say that no matter what may happen You will always be with us, even to the end of the age.

Sometimes I don't know why my mind goes down the paths it does. But when it starts to travel the roads of yesteryear, I seem to lose control of my emotions. At the same time, I lose energy and motivation. Just this morning, I remembered sitting in that waiting room, the minutes creeping by, anxious to hear his first scream, to hold him for the first time, to embrace his mother and him, and face the world as a new father. Little did I know on that wonderful morning how stripped I would feel as I supported his wife while she made decisions on how and where his body would be laid, in waiting for him to reclaim it on Your resurrection day.

Now I sit here, knowing that You know my pain because You too, lost a Son to this earthly life when He was still young. But You are God -- Lord of Lords -- King of Kings -- my hope -- my Redeemer -- my Savior... and I am just a lowly human being trying to make sense of it all.

Today, if I am going to do anything worthwhile, You must strengthen me, empower me, direct me, wipe these tears from my eyes and lift this weight from my heart. I am nothing without You.

Now Lord, help me to focus not on the absence in my life, but on the presence You have given me, surrounded me and blessed me with, to enrich my daily walk.

Thank you Lord. Guess I'd better go to work. Give him a hug for me and let him know I still love him. His entire family looks forward to the day when we are all together, again.

I love You and I trust You.

Your Servant, Dan

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